When the time comes and you find yourself uncertain of what’s next, despite having created maps and carefully laid out paths, only to watch everything fall apart, (I’ve said many things along those lines before.
Now, as I look back on my past (not to dwell—honestly, just to laugh at the irony) I've come to realize that nothing is ever quite as it seems. And more importantly, be careful what you wish for, because you might just get it.
I remember praying earnestly for an opportunity—the chance to move cities, start a new journey, and build a career. I pictured finding a home, reconnecting with a church, and everything seemed so clear in my mind. But despite that, I always knew better than to order my own steps. I trusted that God was in control. Yet, I still found myself questioning Him: If You didn’t want me there, why did You lead me to be saved in that place, only for me to never return? If it was meant to be brief, why show me a glimpse of what could be? There must be something more.
I refused to believe that God would reveal so many possibilities just to tease me. Although it was a desire, it was, albeit, a healthy one—not about material wealth, but about purpose. I worked at a particular company, lived among godly people, and felt drawn to a church I heard so much about. It didn’t make sense that such a brief encounter was all there was to it. Even though I was trusting in God, it wasn’t easy. What seemed like His subtle nudges toward a life in the city didn’t unfold right away. The waiting felt endless, and I struggled to understand what He was doing.
So, I left it in prayer. I stopped obsessing, and eventually, I found peace. Before I knew it, I was living out what seemed like my dream (or at least part of my 1,001 dreams).
God continued the story where He left off. Believe it or not, I didn’t force it. I didn’t rush to the city; in fact, I wasn’t even ready at first. I didn’t pull any strings. I simply trusted that there was more—and it came. The story unfolded. My story continued.
The thing about stories—and as an author myself, check out my books on Wattpad and Amazon:
So yes stories- they often involve conflict. Sometimes the buildup is obvious, and other times it's like dramatic irony, where the audience sees the twist coming while the protagonist remains unaware. In this case, God is the all-knowing spectator (and we rebuke all unwelcome lurkers in Jesus' name!).
When conflict arises, the protagonist often reflects—questioning how things unfolded and why. Even though we expect trials, it’s never easy to accept hardship, especially in areas we hold dear.
When I finally made the move, I found myself feeling lonely, deserted, and deeply disappointed. The visions I had for my life felt like mirages—beautiful pictures that seemed promising but never materialized as I imagined.
In life’s journey, it's wise to be prepared for the unexpected. This isn’t about anticipating trouble or dwelling in fear, but rather trusting God fully. Life has a sense of humor, and what’s even funnier are our expectations that don’t always align with reality.
I often consider myself somewhat naïve—which can be both a strength and a weakness. I tend to think the best of people at first (if I even think of them at all—I truly mind my own business). I forgive easily when things are clear, and I ignore what may seem like direct opposition (at least initially).
However, I've learned that my naivety can sometimes be misplaced. What I see isn’t always what I get.
I’m not sure how "godly" this post sounds or if anyone will shout hallelujah, because this is The Gem Mind Through Christ—The Rare Mind Through Christ.
Ultimately, the purpose of this blog is to share the many aspects of my journey as a Christian, even my doubts. One thing I know for sure is that life and people are full of surprises.
The pictures I once painted in my mind and the experiences I’ve lived don’t always align. Sometimes, things have been so opposite that I’ve wanted to scream “Retreat!” and undo everything.
Yet, giving up can also mean giving in—giving in to the lie that I can’t conquer or prosper. But as the Word of the Lord says, God knows the plans He has for us—plans to help us prosper and give us a good end.
It’s easier said than done, especially when I reflect on past disappointments and struggles. But I hold on to the truth that God overcame the world, and because of that, I can face whatever comes my way.
So, even when things don’t look how I imagined, when opposition arises, and when the urge to give in persists, I remind myself: God didn’t bring me this far to leave me.
Because in the end, a few years from now, I’ll look back and say, “I’m glad I didn’t give up.”
Scripture references:
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11 NIV
These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world. John 16:33 KJV
Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand. Proverbs 19:21 ESV
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